at a later date a friend was just clued into that people around her were taking advantage of her time will tellif she continues to let it happen

in my world ive learned not to fianance my friends habbits or my friends if i buy something for is because i want to not so when i help someone it can be used

friendship has new meaning here for some people is not can i borrow but buy me buy me and never get paid back

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Living in a forest

things are different living in the woods during the summer. you have to monitor the tiny dogs outside because if you don' t hawks will start to circle. they think they are prey. but you still get the idiots who drive up and down the street and ignore the fact that the dogs live on the street. im not sure what is worst

to bad its unprofessional to complain on line

it really is to bad how many companies are looking or known to look on line to find things their employees could might be saying about them. as i sit on my ass while grateful for everything i have in my life. i still find work beyond stressful. and really odd. and are u freaking kidding me. but then i begin to wonder arent there a lot of people right now going omg i dont want to go back to work right now or that job again because its just something i do it isnt something i love (while i love what i do i hate the stuck up bull s that is going on.) everybody has there days when the do not know what to do with there life.. if this job is or isn't the job. the job i can see myself going into for the rest of my life.   one that will change the world and everything i think and know. living here has giving me perspective seeing that there is not a lot of jobs to job hop to but more lay offs watching the new people come in by doz there the people that have never done this line of work before but coming in  with there heart open willing to try something new and to learn a new line of work often late in life. but they want to succeced and help the best way they now how and that is all that can be asked. i do feel like that its execive to go online and spend hours looking for employees bad mouthing the company. there should be things that are ok on a personal site.  

A weekend of Firsts

For me to get up my nerves to do something is a big thing (using a red font as its valentines day) . thursday night a a girl from work sent me a text message asking of i wanted to go out with her and a bunch of her friends and other people from work. asked them where they were going she named off a club and a bar, that i would never go to on my own or let alone let a family member or my friend talk me into. cause id never thought i would fit in or be accepted.  as part of my new years resolutions or inauguration resolutions i gulped and said OK. (as i write this i am listing to Luke snore very very loudly he is putting my father to shame. and miles is a sleep farting which is making me very nauseated  and Andy is barking every time Luke snores louder.) Friday night rolled around and after work i went to my first dance club, and karaoke bar.  didn't drink cause my meds don't advise me to. went stayed for a few hours then went to the karaoke bar i wouldn't sing. although at the dance club i did do some little bit of dirty dancing with the girls. made it home about 130am first time really going out in 8 months it was fun had laughs . tomorrow I'm getting my first tattoo I'm really excited but also really nervous i had my sister draw my design still jumping back and forth on where to put it though.  well happy who gives a rats butt day....

another boring inauguration blog.......

mind you i am not at all politically active.... but watching the special obama show has me moved it gives me hope that things might actually be changing.. for the better.  all the people coming together to share the feeling of hope they have the feeling of excitement the feeling of change in the air. i shudder to think how hard it is going to be after the dust settles and he takes the oath of office and goes in to clean up after bush. after all it causes me tremendous stress to to go in and clean up after the "lazy" person at work the dirty laundry piles the dishes in the sink, overflowing trash can. i cant imagine the mess he is going to face- the mounting issues that have lead to the down fall of the economy, not to mention the crisis over seas.  i cant go into work expecting to be caught up in an hour i have to take the baby steps to get caught up with the daily chores all while keeping on the happy face not letting people i work for know i am stressed. obama will have a much bigger mountain to climb and while the changes wont be readily apparent i know for the first time he is actually working for the people who voted him in not the people who paid for his campaign.  i know i will not be complaining that much anymore because i know i have nothing to complain about. i have a job - most people don't have a job or have been laid off in the area that is already small.. or so many stores have closed i cant even count them on both hands people are hungry worried about were their next meal is going to come from. as i write this the things i feel are "wrong" in my life i know i can work on. getting to college and obtaining a decent education. i am smart i know i can do these things its time i do them. i can make the change for me. however its also time to pay it forward and find some place i can volunteer, in some respects i have been more lucky than i feel i deserve,  . get out to my community and help start by going to church "gulp"joining a group  and start changing one small step at a time.