ho hummmmmmmmmm

well its my second full day in oregon i think or im secretly hoping that when the new house is ready i wont feel like i am in such a vortex this apartment while its nice it just doesnt feel like home maybe because i realy don't have a bedroom or a space to call my own yet or let alone a job. but as far as what i left behind i find myself missing my friend the most and again being in the vortex we are working on ways so it wont feel like i ripped off both of our right arms is one fail swoop because if she had her choice i would be back in the bubble. i made this choice and she supported me 120 percent like she always does so now its time to get this shit figured out